YSeptember 12, 2004
firstly.i've finished readin veronika decides to die.good book.for depressed people. haha. but it makes u think about life lah.went out wit shaikh yest.met kin ming bfore that.haha.help him wit smth.i noe it sucks lah~ haiyah.but im not a pro can.haha.then went town.i bought clip.then we met sudip and his fren and sheena and sab.and shaikh was like TOYS R US!!!! wee.. i admit it was a lil freaky. haha.but he's cute lah.haha then chill at coffee bean.and wait.ferst time i shared ciggies wit shaikh~ haha.madness.i mean bought lah.then we went home.took bus.and wait2,i ate TWO DAMN BOWLS OF BEEF NOODLES.HEAVEN I TELL YOU!! and i was like pregnant lors after that. on tha way home i felt so weak.tha past kept crawling back in ma head.i cant let it distract me.shit.i finally told shaikh~ and sab.i told sab cuz she helped me thru a lot.!! i larve you soo much baby.hey dunt worry ill pray sumwan whu needs you will come soon wokays.now concentrate.dunt be so depressed can ive been thru and it sucks.remember~ dunt mention to anyone.it's erased in ma memories.just locked up in ma heart.shit.i need to find tha key.to fix pieces of ma broken smile.i always look happy.people assume im happy.ryte on. haha.ther's more buried deep inside me.i dunt wanna unleash it.again.ha! i wanna move on goddaMIT.sucks can.and i need to start studying like mad.seriously.im becoming more distracted and lazy.god.thanx fer givin me tha motivation shaikh~ many lovies.shaikh~ im really sorry if ive hurt you tha other day but hey, i hope you really undersand.it sucks can baby.hehe.can can.wahah.anyway ive said all ive said to you.and i hope u understand*hopes*. after i get back home i had to siap2 again.watchin anacondas.it's not that bad after all.got this black guy he was sooo funnyyy.gawd.i cannot tahan.haha.SNAKE ORGY can~ wahahahahah that was like tha funniest lors.and tha grosiest was tha leech thang~ gawd been stop it stop it.went simpang for tea-o-peng afta that and went back home.i slept next to sab.how kewl was that.wahahaha.now i need to concentrate.no one is going to distract me.ive got tha adrenalin to focus.wee.ryte on yana~
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