YFebruary 13, 2005
happy valentine's day to all.actually, to me it's more of a appreaciating-yer-friends-more than a couple-moment.i never believed in valentine's day.sorry mr valentine.
something weird happened to me in july.i grew closer to sumwan whose character was tha total opposite of mine.im still young, free..i still wanna go on dates.be pampered. gurls day out.late night out and all.but suddenly this total-opposite suddenly made a bang on ma head.just like that.
something funny happened in november.-i got attached...to him.
it was tha strangest thang.i do get well along with him.but no one really knew deep inside me.i always prayed that it'll go well.for long.cuz practically people do know me.i get bored.irritated, cant-be-bothered. im afraid ill hurt him,without any purpose.
it was all so quick.no signs,warning letters. i couldnt figure it out.
i could never find tha right one.either they were too irritating.get on ma nerves.too boring.too immature.stupid,seriously, plain stupid.jacks, extreme pain in tha bottom. i almost resigned to tha fact that hey, i will find "mr right" when im really old and we can get married then". tha guys ive dated brought me hanging stuck in CONFUSED-VILLE and WHINEY TOWN.
a real relationship.it WAS for pussies in ma dictionary but now,im beggining to realise they have balls to. just like me.certain.ive always hated happy shiny people. now,im beginning to be polished into one.
maybe im not ready.well for now.i do,cherish him a whole lot.but smtimes it gets scary when they all starts talkin about parents,marriage,stuffs. come on, i do...wanna have fun first.seriously.wouldnt wanna waste actually.i can always have fun with him.but it wouldnt be tha same.me and him,we have many thangs in common.we both adore music.into cool stuffs,etc etc.it's just maybe, we need to really chill out.for now.
well,tha polishing-to-be-shiny-happy-people would really like to wish all ma family,cousins,friends,loved ones especially valentine's day.just makes me realise how much i love you guys and how ma world revolves ard you..... *smiles*
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