.addicted.

For this past few weeks ive been pretty contented. besides having great people to hang out with, i miss hanging out with dope. i hope ill get to see him soon. it doesnt seem too complete not chatting up with him for some time.

im still in kind of a deep mess, only happier. much happier. haha. like, trigger happy. but just blame the projects. really mindfucked, thanks to projects.

i miss smelling the early morning breeze. i wanna go roller-blading or cycling.wished i had a bicycle. =(

well, i wanna thank you for the great times and all the funny lame jokes. you're a wonderful,great person. AND you should stay away from people who might make you complicated, or feel complicated. nevertheless, i love your company.

*brownsugar* rant at Monday, January 22, 2007 .

cold cold sunday.

to aaron, hahahahhahaha. i wished i hadnt told you bout the beanie. i swear i could have knocked myself out laughing if i took a polaroid of your 'panic' face. woah. funny.you know dark places to chill in TP, so weird. like bringing me to dark,sensor-useless IT labs were so seriously random. but it was cold, dim and all nice. nevertheless, i wished there was a face staring back at the both of us at that tiny square window. we'll have a freaking awesome story to tell everyone the next day.ouh wells.

underage party sucks. all the mats will dance and wear the 'topi letak'. i feel like teaching them how to relly really use a cap.well, i did have a little fun although it was short-lived.

chilling at simpang in the wee hours of the early morning. =)) i swore that chinese, racist friend of keemi is preety alright himself.

i know work sucks cause you dont get to chill all-the-same with your dear favourite friends and like the girls at ur workplace are very kanchong-spider-squared, and you wished your working hours were not fucked up. i hope thats all okay cause thats the reason its called work . maybe when someone buys me a bicycle on my birthday we can go cycling together. ahh.nvm,random.

im really going broke. no work, no money.chill chill chill.presents for birthdays. mampos lah aku.
fucking boring sunday, no one asked me out. nabey. im so pathetic ever since.... let's not talk abt it shall we. i need to learn to be happy, merry, to stop crying randomly and just be all smiley.

kudos to the late night cold-rainy weather but no kudos to the wet soggy shoes and slippery slippers and the cold cramps.ill never be contented.

*brownsugar* rant at Sunday, January 14, 2007 .

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.

most of the times, action speaks louder.

*brownsugar* rant at Saturday, January 06, 2007 .

i've been thinking, pretty much a lot lately. it hasnt been a good few weeks for me but im glad there are people who still care for me. i love you guys to bits. anyway projects being a wholesome bitch cause there's soo many and soo little time. seriously.so im going to take all the things off my mind and focus on those bitches.

i think ive got to learn to forget, although no one really does forget. i have a bad habit of thinking about too many what ifs. Actually, it is definitely a bad habit.i think you made me into this someone i am now.

since you prefer consequences, don't regret it. it definitely is a lose-lose situation. you've chose the worse. ive warned you.you insist.so be it.

the other day, unexpectedly, someone said something to me. made me think 48463 times about myself, about what ive done, about all the sins i knew i could stop doing but didnt and what karma might do to you, if it comes.its a 'gut-wrenching' (hahas) situation. geez.

to you, the duck-grape joke really made my day. tickled my ugly toes.

to nufail and abeen, i love the gorgeous gorgeous mermaids. its so pretty. ill definitely think of you guys whenever i use it. its such an unexpected present. i absolutely love it. and and i know ive not been spending time with you two but you know that ill do it whenever i can right?

i will love abeen forever even until a knot is able to be tied with her boobies and i will love nufail forever even if she turns albino.

*brownsugar* rant at Friday, January 05, 2007 .